Life
Well, I can say things with my crush have gone quite far. Yep, I finally asked him out, and he said yes. I was pretty happy, and this was about what, a month ago? Shows you how much I update -cough- >.> I guess there’s not much going on really, except for Lacrosse starting =D We had our first game on Monday and our second on Wednesday. I was nervous, I made the B team, which just rocks in my case. I absolutely love playing lacrosse, it’s an awesome sport. Well, I’ll guess I’ll say bye now, I’m pretty tired and I have school tomorrow >.>

Night-Nighty

Life
So, life has been, how do I put it, interesting? I dunno. Just weird, especially these past stupid few days. It’s just my small group of super close friends has crumbled. =[ An old rule we had made was “We can’t date each other, people will get hurt” The rule has been officially broken. And it sucks dude. We all used to be like “DUDE! POUND IT! -pounds fists together- (Yes, I am a girl. Learn to deal with me saying “pound it”) Now it’s all awkward. And I’m afraid for Monday, it’s called sides. The ever dreaded word. I may just hang with the others, and pray for peace all weekend. D= Yesh people, thats how bad it is, I sense war. I mean, the rule was something we all cherished, we had made it from personal experience, and now it just re-crumbled. And people are getting hurt, and all the junkie stuff. Like, girls back stab girls ( I don’t, I gave that up) and some of them are reverting to thinking the popular crowd will be better. Wrong. My popular crowd at school is mean once you’re in, and it’s hard to push out. Little iron gates. I just want all my old friends back, Now it’s weird. And it started for me today from Math until the end of the day. In Math, 3 of my friends were whispering about a paper, and I begged them to show me, so when they did, I asked what it meant and the girl said “Phyllis doesn’t get it” and then they started ignoring me. I was, well, kinda pissed. And only one of them said hi to me in Prima Lingua, other than that, they were trapped together. And it’s bothering the living crap outta me. I want it to be normal again. When we ran around outside, and played jokes on each other, and messed around pretty much. It just got weird from Math to the end of the day, but before that everything was ay-ok. And my dearest friend started talking to me again. She pretty much ignored me the whole week, and now she’s talking again. Beats me why, I dunno. But, at least thats back, now I have a feeling I’m going to have to fix everything else, because usually, thats what I do. Or give advice, because truthfully, being caught in between a huge fight is not fun at all. But, on Monday, I’m most likely going to sit with the other side of the pack, since they’re all smart and stay out of this shit. I gotta try that more often. And, thanks to this whole fight, I now have paranoia. I’m always afraid to leave a room without thinking “Are they talking about me? And if they are, what about?” And when my friends whisper, I get worried. It’s nauseating. Always wondering what your friends are doing. It’s a butt load o’ work, but I’m working on it.

Lovey-Dovey-Lifey
I have to say thing with my crush have gotten better. It makes me feel good to know that much. Today he kinda ruffled my hair, but I think only because I was trying to steal his friends hat. =D We’re talking again, and we spend more time together. (No, we’re not a couple, I wish xD) But, yesh, we are closer, and I want to sit with him at lunch on Monday, he stays out of the drama of everything, smart boy >..> Horn-hate of course, making me all dorky >.<

Simsy-Rant-Thing…. Oh, Screw It
I have been thinking a lot about the sims2 community and I may soon be…. (dun dun dun) -tune scary music- leaving it. I dunno. The sims doesn’t interest me that much anymore. It takes a lot of will power, and strength to open my game, I love making new sims, but dread opening it to put the family in. Something I have to over come. But you know, it seems cliques are everywhere these days, the whole choose your friends carefully. I love the sims2 and everything, and sometimes I think the one thing that keeps me in the community is all the good friends I made. If I had left earlier, I would’ve never made all those friends. -sigh-

Well, byebye chickies! Until next time! (Hope I don’t leave it again)

I really have been stressed these past few days, and I wish I could take a week off and sleep and go on the computer just to lounge out, and be calm and happy. Big shocker for me.

But, I have to say right now is the most fun I’ve had in school.I guess its partly that even with my crush knowing I like hm, we’ve grown closer. And I’ve been happier with the friends I have now. I still have a few old ones, but I’ve gotten closer with a certain few. And there’s beenno rumors recently about any of my friends or me, so I have to say I’m really happy these days, but I’m still depressed. I guess its one of those things that always stay there, nagging in the back of your head saying “I’m still here, and you can’t rid of me”

But, I have to say I’m starting to get math more. It makes a little more sense.We’re working on something about doing a bunch of different opperations together in one problem. And recently, I’ve been able to do it without a calculator, I feel smart =D

And two online friends have recently gotten me hooked on: The Faint and Cute Is What We Aim For. Tomorrow my mom’s taking me out to get some more books, and I may ask for those two CD’s. =D Rock music seems to intertest me more than pop does, and that has deifinitely affected me.

Well, nighty-night loves. Have a wonderful tomorrow! (or today depeding where you are)

So, lets see. I was so sad today because my crush wasn’t in school. Sadness.

And also, my friend let someone guess who I liked. Slightly pissed. Who wouldn’t be.

But, my friend is lucky. She may be getting her first BF tomorrow. =D Knock on wood.

Really, I guess I had a good day, especially since I don’t have school tomorrow =D WHEEEEEEEEEE. I’m most happy for the most part, and I may head over to my friends house tosle,d and hangout in the snow.

Talk to you laters! <2 (Because I’m cool)

You all know what I mean: feeling down, tired-ness. The usual.

My usual: being harrased about any secrets getting out. I guessI’ve hit my depression phase again. I literally f eel like everyone hates me, and I want to go curl up in my bed and sleep. This of course has to do boys (when it comes to me, when doesn’t it?) Seems like someone ripped the world out from under me and watched me fall and laughed. The only thing keeping me down, or from blowing up, would be my friends. And this dearest blog.

But my day has been eventful, and the only tough part was 2nd to last period and last period, (yes, I mean school) “I know about him” So does everyone else, so go die in a trash-can, k? I find it none of someones business to do that. I mean, my business, not yours, butt out. Got it? Good.

If I had that courage, I would be off in a second, But I don’t, so yeah, hi. My motto: your business is your business, my business is my business and if I want to tell you, I’ll tell you. Capeesh?

Thanks, <3

Well, I had quite an interesting day. Mostly, my friend never called me back, and never responded to my texts. But I have a feeling she has her reasons. Most people do. Most.

But I am tiiii-red. Really, I have nothing to do. And I really want to start to write a Sims Story. =D

Exciting isn’t it?

Well, I’m off to go finish off my homework, and hit my bed with a thump and fall in deep slumber. ;]

Boys are tough. Especially when you ask one of your closest friends “Does he know?” and they say yes, and that someone told them, where does that trust go? Down the drain mister. It’s like trust can be thrown away.

Gah, it’s all confusing, guys are too confusing. You never know what they’re thinking, even when you’re positive you’re right. I find life hard too. Sometimes I wish I could crawl into a box and go back to when I was 5 with Barbie’s and play dough, and all those dress up clothes. No one said growing up was easy.

So last night had to be the most interesting dance I’ve ever been too. Lets put it this way: people in my grade make terrible jokes. To ask someone out as a joke is not funny. Especially when two girls run to the bathroom because of it. Ever known what it’s felt like to feel your friends pain? That’s how I was last night. But it’s worse when you find out you made a fool of yourself when it was a big joke. And to make the night feel like it fell on you, this boy found out I like him. Trust is something thats starting to turn out like chocolate: it’s good while it lasts. So, my night was quite interesting.

I might as well write about Valentines Day since I’m on a roll. My personal opinion: it rocks because of candy. But when theres a boy involved, its a whole lot more interesting. It seems like thees always a boy there. But really, it’s too lovey/dovey-ish for me. Even if I did so happen to have a boyfriend, its still too lovey/dovey-ish.

Well, long, stupid rant. Maybe you won’t even come back. Well, I’m off.

Roger and out.